08/07/12

work,work work at life, at relationships, at desires to be the best you can be. Somedays you get tired.
I am tired but I am also finding that my lack of exercise and self control with food has had a telling result. I feel ooky.

So I need to find my motivation. I had one very exciting thing happen this weekend as I cinched myself into a Ren Faire bodice I made for myself about 20 years ago. It was for a Shakespeare themed party. It was midsummers night dream and I had taken the role of Cobweb. One of Queen Titana's attendants. She seemed to be more of the leather and lace type than the fluffy kind.
 But still found myself winded this morning as I walked up the stairs.
 I have managed to control my intake of soda. I had two over the weekend. Which I kind of wrote off as I was driving over 8 hours. But I still don't feel as strong as I had last summer. What was I doing? Sex daily- that has kind of tapered off, oddly enough since my hunny now has a day time job. I was riding my bike more and working on abs. I think I just need to find the time to do those things again. Work on my control with food rather than just skipping meals, actually eat good meals.
 Maybe I am worried about Avalon moving out? yep in a week she will be heading to College. At least I hope so as we still haven't heard if we have secured the loans yet for her.

I did have ramen and milk for breakfast.
 Water and then more water at work
lunch is a isagenix shake, might at least finish off what I have, snack of apple and cheese slices
Dinner tonight is another shake and water and power bar bursts.
I will be fighting tonight. I have an axe to thrust!